Now I know I am supposed to be honest in my blog but I just couldn’t face the embarrasment I would suffer from this one. It has taken me a little while to come clean. Last month was our first month trying to concieve numero 2 and I really truly believed I was pregnant. I had all of the symptoms even down to implantation bleeding on 8dpo. When my period was 4 days late I though it had to be it! Alas, last Friday, my dreaded period arrived. What happened to my instinct, it had been completely besieged by my obsession with becoming pregnant. I am sure I’m not the first ttc-er out there that has done this and I won’t be the last but, jeeeez, its embarrasing. Its almost like I tricked myself into believeing I was pregnant. Will have to be a little more careful this month and keep my insane ravings to the confines of my head!

Okay, so I know I’m probably being a bit impatient, seeing as we have only been ttc for 2 weeks now. I swear I have had all of the pregnancy symptoms though…just hope its not all in my mind. I’ve been weeing almost once an hour, I had stomach cramps low down on one side and now they are all over my lower tummy but not so often and very mild. I felt sick a couple of times but not consistantly every day and I haven’t been able to do as much as usual on the treadmill. also, I’ve been feeling lightheaded, very bloated on lower tummy so much so that my “big” jeans don’t feel comfortably anymore, even had implantation bleeding on the 8th day. Starting to notice certain smells are a lot more pungent than usual.

I have done 3 home tests but all negative. I looked it up on the internet and it does say that it would be too early to tell at the moment so perhaps that was a bit optimistic!

I will be really annoyed with myself if this is all in my mind. I’d like to think I was sensible enough to know my own body.

I shall keep you updated – fingers crossed!

Firstly let me begin by saying HAPPY NEW YEAR!  If you have kids and stil managed to stay up to see the New Year in, I am truely impressed. We were in bed by 10pm – Rock and Roll!

I have thought long and hard about this over the past few years and without being sexist at all, I  feelvery lucky to be a gal. Having stopped taking the pill (its been 4 days now) I am getting that special feeling back, just the same as when I was pregnant with Harry. The mere thought that I am going to be making a baby in the very near future makes me feel really unique. I know its the same for every women so I can’t be that unique but you must have felt this before girls.  When you are not pregnant you feel like everyone else, but when you are pregnant, people treat you differently. They make you feel precious and protected. You are carrying precious cargo and doing the most important job and everyone seems to respect that. Of course you get the odd chauvanistic pleb who will constantly remark on your ever expanding waistline (like my former boss, but thats another story!). In my humble opinion, we are the fortunate ones. It doesn’t matter to me how bad the stretch marks and saggy skin get after the job is done, its a small price to pay for the privilage of growing a little baby. If your partner is worth their salt then they will love every new mark on your body that each baby brings.